The Infinity Project

Dear Kristin at age 30,

I don’t know what you look like, and I don’t have a clue where you are. But I hope you know, and always remember how hard you’ve worked to get there. Whether you live in a Pinterest designed castle, or a broken amazon prime box, you made it. Through all of the ups and all of the downs.

Through all of the negative. Through all of the doubt. You’ve made it. There were and will always be people who don’t believe in you as far as they can toss you. People who will claim to love you, yet prove you anything but worthy. But you fought for yourself when nobody else would. You sought help. You went to therapy, despite the racing anxiety. Because deep down each time you knew you’d make it, and you never gave up on that progress you worked for that did anything but come to you overnight. You’ve been centimeters away from ending it all, but you had an ounce of hope. You knew there would be more, even when your life was crumbling around you. You’ve allowed yourself to grow. You’ve allowed weakness to show. Your vulnerability is envious. You kept yourself alive, even when you couldn’t see the future. So now I know you’ll go further than ever before. Because rock bottom was a hard stop, but you climbed back up out of that deep dark pit & only looked back to share your survival story. so keep fighting. Keep showing up and believing the Lord will come through. Because Kristin, He’s done it every. single. time before.

I’m writing this in 2019, & living in Auburn Washington. just sitting in absolute awe of the past and what the Lord has brought us through. & while right now in this moment I can’t wait to see what the next 5 years will hold, I do know you won’t give up. you won’t stop fighting for yourself and your mental health. & most importantly you’ll never stop sharing your story of healing. You’ll fulfill and finish strong the mission God has for your life. Because you were created to be more than a statistic. You were created to struggle, survive, and prove to others that it can be conquered.

you’re incredible. and I hope by now, at age 30, you’ve actually begun to believe it.

sincerely, you at 25